It has a saying that I believe, "if it is meant to be, it will be." However there are times that the saying, "if it is not meant to be, it will not be" applies in life as well. The latter happened to me. One of my Christmas wishes is to have good grades and be part of the Dean's list. However, one course pulled me down, so I was not able to be part of the dean's list..again. This happened for the third time consistently and consecutively. When one has a grade of 1.75, he is considered a so-called "dean's lister" up to 1.0. My general weighted average is again, unfortunately, at 1.8. I made a promise to myself that I should get a higher grades this time because of certain important reasons. Even if my parents and relatives say that it is already good, but to me, it is not. It is because what I want is to go beyond their expectations and to make them proud, especially my parents. All I could do now is sigh. I could hardly get over about it. I have been telling myself to "do better next time" but what happens is nothing. I feel like nothing. I feel even useless sometimes. How could the other students achieve a higher grades with ease? If not, then how still? I am now losing my urge better. Nawawalan na ako ng gana. But something tells me that I am near success. A little more effort would make me reach the dream I wanted since. I do not know. Now two choices are being given to me right now. To continue or not--these choices, maybe, will give me the answer if the second term is already right in front of me. I really pray that I will be doing my best from this moment on. Let us see.
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