I never thought that this moment would come faster than I have expected. Alas, all that is left to me now is less than a year of being a teenager, nineteen. This is big deal for me because in teenage life, we always get to acquire knowledge as much as we want to and sometimes, we do not want to. In my case, both of them occurred. I sometimes question life if that is really its role in my late preadolescence, and if that would still get worse in the adulthood stage. Nevertheless, my teenage life gave me wisdom and perseverance to somehow be able to jump off the hurdles that I have been dealing with, and with everyday struggles encountered, tough or not, have made me somehow ready for the next stages of trials. The bitter-sweet life made me realize that there is no other person whom I can rely onto but myself, and the only one who could lift myself up in the struggles, and this is what I am doing right now, it is because of the environment. I learned that perseverance is one of the main key to success.
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As soon as my birthday has passed, I have been more under pressure than the past few years because I really want my last teenage year to become the most progressive year in my life. I want it to be the start of my progression as I welcome adulthood next year. However, even if I am able to do it slowly, there are still some things that hinder me to become one, and they always lead me to resort to think about it consistently and constantly--thinking what to do to solve them without even making a single try out of my thoughts. First, financial problem, my main problem. I always run out of money and I still look for ways on how to earn them without making my parents worry that I am experiencing such. College's difficulty level was beyond my expectation. Indolence would only mean the start of the failure, and end of my path. If I do not do well in my academics, it would be a double disadvantage for me, financially, as well as academically. Every Saturday, we do have a food laboratory class so I get to spend a lot in one week. P100 a day is sometimes insufficient so I resort to spend my extra money especially for food. Second, emotional problem. Solitude keeps getting in the way that tries to make my days unprogressive and make me consistently in thought. I always worry about myself and my family. I also think about the environment I am always in, which I suppose our standards doesn't meet since I am a straightforward person? Since the environment keeps itself distant because of it, I keep myself distant from it as well, and so to keep me from these stressful thoughts, I have thought of joining some organizations specifically the university wide which has the category for writers, TomCat and TomasinoWeb. I wanted to at least improve my hobbies or maybe, talents and turn them into skills so I have thought of joining them. Unfortunately, I was not accepted in any of them and probably the reason is I told them I was already a member of two college-based organizations. I am the director for networking in Benevolent Individuals Bring Better Outcome (BIBBO) and secretariat assistant committee head in Hotel and Restaurant Management Society (HRMS). Sometimes I wish I did not tell about my current organizations to be accepted and be able to write some blogs or articles, but I thought there is still plenty of opportunities that could be grabbed so there was not a single hard feelings at all. Besides, I am able to publish my blogs and poems in this site anyway. However I still felt incomplete, so instead of focusing my attention to joining university wide organizations, I have thought of focusing myself in the studies, without relying only on my common sense and stock knowledge, but also on my memory capability. I started to develop a study habit which I think would be very essential at the end of the day--advance reading and drilling process of acquiring knowledge. Right now I am in an adjustment stage--the stage which I really love the most--the stage in which there is always an increment of progress each day. However I still need to have a lot of discipline in academics and in myself--time management. I look forward to become the person I have always wanted to be from my so-called 'future visualizations,' who is an intellect especially in literature.
As much as I am serious about my aspirations, I also am serious with the principles I stand with. Speaking of being straightforward earlier, I admit that I am blunt. I never usually go around the bushes when I act or talk, comment, and judge (or maybe criticize, but not lambaste, of course) especially when I see something is wrong or an incident occurring wrongly. When I do not like a person, I really show to him without hiding anything, or act like we are doing good. When someone turns my back on me, I will neglect our friendship without a second thought. I really stand with conviction even if majority is against me as long as I am in the right place. I inherited these from my mother who is twice straightforward than me, who also inherited all the way from my grandmother and from my grandfather who is an Ilonggo and Waray, respectively; as well as from my father to build a standard for myself and the standard of choosing the right friends. My favorite uncle, uncle Masato, even advised me that whenever I encounter a friend who I consider immoral, cut the relationship with them immediately. This attitude has not really awakened until my late high school years, during my fourth year high school. It is the time when I have really known who Senator Miriam Santiago is, a very brave, strong, and blunt woman. From then on, by watching her talk and conduct an interpellation in the senate, I realized that denouncing the bad event is just the most right thing to do. I do not believe in the saying (or when someone advises me) "hayaan na lang" because the negligence to solving a problem would cause it to spread, not stop or discourage it or the people involved in it. It is like a plant. You should treat it well, trim it well. If you leave it in the backyard, it'll grow awfully, BEHIND YOUR BACK, and that is what I believe in. Moreover, I can be the voice of someone or group of people if they are being bullied, insulted, or humiliated. I do not want these diseases to be consistently spreading in the society. I do not want to live in a world full of bigotry, hypocrisy, and mediocrity. If one might say I am crossing the line (or epal) and I should keep quiet, I will never agree with him. If standing up for what is morally right is very wrong, then I do not want to be right. I want to be one of the people to encourage others that speaking up for what is morally right is NEVER WRONG. To stand by with integrity will lead to one's part of success and will cause the spread of honesty and transparency in every people in the society.
As what I have mentioned earlier, perseverance is the main key to success. I know I still lack a lot of experiences, knowledge, and wisdom but I will never stop my interest in learning, and if I gained enough knowledge of something, I will definitely impart my knowledge to others. If possible, I will also be an inspiration to others. This is my 19th birthday wish--to make myself hungry for knowledge and adhere to moral integrity. I will be part of the change someday. I hope this blog inspired you.
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